random update

It is weekends again...However, weekends in INTI seems to be as busy as weekdays. The only difference is that there is no torturous lectures from different lecturers.
Nevertheless, bulks of assignments and tests are awaiting for us. We will never be free for the last semester of CSAM! I miss my home so much.
It is time to decide where I want to head to as well. What a tough decision for me(actually, I don't feel like I wish to go)....But I know I have no choice but to achieve this goal. It is not only my personal interest, but the pride of my family. I cannot forgone the hope just to satisfy my freedom...=(

失望了

I have put myself into desperation~
I lost control and I indulge myself to do all those stuffs I am not supposed to do right now...
I know that It is time for me to concentrate, but it seems like a mission impossible for me : I can't focus for more than 15 minutes even in my normal conversation with other people....T.T..can I say that I am not sincere and put in my heart in all of the things around me?
It is my onus to pay attention and live my life to the fullest.....But I cant even achieve anyone of my goal....
真的失望了，是我没那份心？还是我根本就把我的心遗漏在某个角落了？
能从拾那颗被我遗漏了的心吗？
你在哪里？
还有你的理智呢？

Back Home

It seems like I really get home and do nothing....
I fill my schedule with outings and playings, doing non-sense things with my friends...
Nonetheless, I feel happy with these ( At the same time I do feel guilt for not helping my mum)....Not that filial....
I am really in the holiday mood, not going to think about my result, my works and my coming torturous semester...
Let's enjoy my 2 weeks holiday!HooRay~

I hate myself

I hate myself...for being not cant discipline myself....
I keep going off the track that i had planned
In the end, I end up doing nothing.....
I really cannot control myself these few days..
I am so easily pissed off and talk loudly to my friends...
I cant even treat their jokes on me calmly...
I feel so sad for being so emotional.....
Why I can't control my temper and EQ better?
I feel so sorry to my friends and hope that they will not mind it....
really sorry...
I can't control my feeling and cant control everything!
Everything seems like opposing my desire......
I want my EQ back!
Meditation~~~~~~But I can't even concentrate how am I going to meditate??
So desperate I mess up everything in this eleventh hours....
There is no time for me to handle all these troublesome stuffs now, at least within this few weeks...
I HATE myself for make everything worse!!!!!!

Outing

Today, we go for an outing in Mid Valley with our lecturer,Mr Yee...
And today is Teacher's Day...HapPy Teacher's Day to Mr.Yee..
We go there by group...
When we reach there, they all still discussing what movie to watch, but I had reserve my IP Man 2 tickets..Keke....

After that, we go to Pizza Hut for lunch..I eat it last time when i was in Form 2 I think..damn long time ago...haha...Anyway, I like it....And sure, we have a photo session in Pizza Hut...All poses are taken and we enjoyed a lot..Here are some photos..



We have 2 tables...woohooo..

After lunch, we go for our movies and split according to the time and movie we are going to watch....Let's have some comments on this movie...
It really show the spirit of Chinese! I like the words said by IP Man: 人的地位有高低之分，但人格不应该有贵贱之别!He fights not because he wants to show that chinese kung fu is more powerful, he just want to show that people have different status but we should respect each other! 洪金宝also said that, he can tolerate with their actions but he can't tolerate if they can't despise Chinese kung fu...They not only learn the actions but they learn the virtues hidden in its too....Nice!

After we watch IP Man, seem like all other people are missing,we walk ourselves...Walk randomly in the shopping mall....Then, Pauline goes to JUSCO to buy swimming goggles..She choose for quite some time and wondering which to buy..haha..finally, she buy a black one..with UV protection and accessories provided...

After that, we manage to meet MJ, Ken and Joanne, but others still can't find...And they didn't answer our call!They all are in the arcade!!Playing games...

After games, we split into small group of 2-3 again...to buy our own stuffs...I gowith Macy but I don't have any thing to buy...We cant really recognise the route and we walk based on the direction shown on the directory...But we still fail to find ATM...

After that, we are called to meet in KFC...AGAIN, two 路痴 lost in mid valley again!!!what a shame...wakaka....we take almost half an hour walking all the way in Mid Valley just to find where KFC is!!sigh....ToT...@@

Sure it is time to snap shot again..After we grab all the food and eat..we start out photo session again...with the photo provided, you can imagine how hungry we are..haha


And below are some snap shots photo...between, we give a present to Mr.Yee as teacher's day present..And I want to express my appreciation to him as he really scarifies a lot in educating us to be smarter and how to be a more rounded person not only academically....Thanks..







We all are so crazy with taking photos and we play in KTM all the way back to Nilai..haha







Overall, it is really an interesting and joyful outing!!Hope to have another outing...

Indulge

It's really an indulge...
I watched 16 episodes and 1 movie one short within a day!!
Tomorrow I am going out for the other movie again...
I really regret why i cant control myself?T.T
Where is my self discipline??
It is not a method for me to relax!!
Obsessive~
What should I do to control my hand and playful mind??
seems like an impossible task....
Really have to ask someone to control me from continuing all these dumps rubbish stuffs...
Who can help me?
I know in my deep heart...
It's only me can help myself...
Please discipline yourself!!!No more sweet time for you~~T.T
STOP DOING THESE NON-SENSE STUFFS!!!

面具

人，小时候简单，长大了复杂。这个世界其实很简单，只是人心很复杂。
随着年龄的增长，人心愈见丑陋。每个人都活在自己的面具底，就为了保护脆弱的心灵，免得被伤得遍体鳞伤。
人前，我们总是戴着面具。
当自己快乐的时侯，面对着别人也需是微笑的，就怕伤了悲伤的人；
当自己伤心的时候，也需笑脸迎人，哪怕自己的心在淌着血，只因为不想表露出自己脆弱的一面，让人有机会踩多一脚；
武装起自己，才能在这复杂的世界生存下来；
武装起自己，才不会被人欺负蹂躏；
渐渐的，面具取代了真性情，
深夜里，摘下面具，面对着原来的自己，也不确定原来的自己是怎样的一个人了……
其实人心也很简单，只是利益分配时很复杂。 人，一简单就快乐，但快乐的人寥寥无几；一复杂就痛苦，可痛苦的人却熙熙攘攘。