random update

It is weekends again...However, weekends in INTI seems to be as busy as weekdays. The only difference is that there is no torturous lectures from different lecturers.
Nevertheless, bulks of assignments and tests are awaiting for us. We will never be free for the last semester of CSAM! I miss my home so much.
It is time to decide where I want to head to as well. What a tough decision for me(actually, I don't feel like I wish to go)....But I know I have no choice but to achieve this goal. It is not only my personal interest, but the pride of my family. I cannot forgone the hope just to satisfy my freedom...=(

失望了

I have put myself into desperation~
I lost control and I indulge myself to do all those stuffs I am not supposed to do right now...
I know that It is time for me to concentrate, but it seems like a mission impossible for me : I can't focus for more than 15 minutes even in my normal conversation with other people....T.T..can I say that I am not sincere and put in my heart in all of the things around me?
It is my onus to pay attention and live my life to the fullest.....But I cant even achieve anyone of my goal....
真的失望了，是我没那份心？还是我根本就把我的心遗漏在某个角落了？
能从拾那颗被我遗漏了的心吗？
你在哪里？
还有你的理智呢？

Back Home

It seems like I really get home and do nothing....
I fill my schedule with outings and playings, doing non-sense things with my friends...
Nonetheless, I feel happy with these ( At the same time I do feel guilt for not helping my mum)....Not that filial....
I am really in the holiday mood, not going to think about my result, my works and my coming torturous semester...
Let's enjoy my 2 weeks holiday!HooRay~

I hate myself

I hate myself...for being not cant discipline myself....
I keep going off the track that i had planned
In the end, I end up doing nothing.....
I really cannot control myself these few days..
I am so easily pissed off and talk loudly to my friends...
I cant even treat their jokes on me calmly...
I feel so sad for being so emotional.....
Why I can't control my temper and EQ better?
I feel so sorry to my friends and hope that they will not mind it....
really sorry...
I can't control my feeling and cant control everything!
Everything seems like opposing my desire......
I want my EQ back!
Meditation~~~~~~But I can't even concentrate how am I going to meditate??
So desperate I mess up everything in this eleventh hours....
There is no time for me to handle all these troublesome stuffs now, at least within this few weeks...
I HATE myself for make everything worse!!!!!!

Outing

Today, we go for an outing in Mid Valley with our lecturer,Mr Yee...
And today is Teacher's Day...HapPy Teacher's Day to Mr.Yee..
We go there by group...
When we reach there, they all still discussing what movie to watch, but I had reserve my IP Man 2 tickets..Keke....

After that, we go to Pizza Hut for lunch..I eat it last time when i was in Form 2 I think..damn long time ago...haha...Anyway, I like it....And sure, we have a photo session in Pizza Hut...All poses are taken and we enjoyed a lot..Here are some photos..



We have 2 tables...woohooo..

After lunch, we go for our movies and split according to the time and movie we are going to watch....Let's have some comments on this movie...
It really show the spirit of Chinese! I like the words said by IP Man: 人的地位有高低之分，但人格不应该有贵贱之别!He fights not because he wants to show that chinese kung fu is more powerful, he just want to show that people have different status but we should respect each other! 洪金宝also said that, he can tolerate with their actions but he can't tolerate if they can't despise Chinese kung fu...They not only learn the actions but they learn the virtues hidden in its too....Nice!

After we watch IP Man, seem like all other people are missing,we walk ourselves...Walk randomly in the shopping mall....Then, Pauline goes to JUSCO to buy swimming goggles..She choose for quite some time and wondering which to buy..haha..finally, she buy a black one..with UV protection and accessories provided...

After that, we manage to meet MJ, Ken and Joanne, but others still can't find...And they didn't answer our call!They all are in the arcade!!Playing games...

After games, we split into small group of 2-3 again...to buy our own stuffs...I gowith Macy but I don't have any thing to buy...We cant really recognise the route and we walk based on the direction shown on the directory...But we still fail to find ATM...

After that, we are called to meet in KFC...AGAIN, two 路痴 lost in mid valley again!!!what a shame...wakaka....we take almost half an hour walking all the way in Mid Valley just to find where KFC is!!sigh....ToT...@@

Sure it is time to snap shot again..After we grab all the food and eat..we start out photo session again...with the photo provided, you can imagine how hungry we are..haha


And below are some snap shots photo...between, we give a present to Mr.Yee as teacher's day present..And I want to express my appreciation to him as he really scarifies a lot in educating us to be smarter and how to be a more rounded person not only academically....Thanks..







We all are so crazy with taking photos and we play in KTM all the way back to Nilai..haha







Overall, it is really an interesting and joyful outing!!Hope to have another outing...

Indulge

It's really an indulge...
I watched 16 episodes and 1 movie one short within a day!!
Tomorrow I am going out for the other movie again...
I really regret why i cant control myself?T.T
Where is my self discipline??
It is not a method for me to relax!!
Obsessive~
What should I do to control my hand and playful mind??
seems like an impossible task....
Really have to ask someone to control me from continuing all these dumps rubbish stuffs...
Who can help me?
I know in my deep heart...
It's only me can help myself...
Please discipline yourself!!!No more sweet time for you~~T.T
STOP DOING THESE NON-SENSE STUFFS!!!

面具

人，小时候简单，长大了复杂。这个世界其实很简单，只是人心很复杂。
随着年龄的增长，人心愈见丑陋。每个人都活在自己的面具底，就为了保护脆弱的心灵，免得被伤得遍体鳞伤。
人前，我们总是戴着面具。
当自己快乐的时侯，面对着别人也需是微笑的，就怕伤了悲伤的人；
当自己伤心的时候，也需笑脸迎人，哪怕自己的心在淌着血，只因为不想表露出自己脆弱的一面，让人有机会踩多一脚；
武装起自己，才能在这复杂的世界生存下来；
武装起自己，才不会被人欺负蹂躏；
渐渐的，面具取代了真性情，
深夜里，摘下面具，面对着原来的自己，也不确定原来的自己是怎样的一个人了……
其实人心也很简单，只是利益分配时很复杂。 人，一简单就快乐，但快乐的人寥寥无几；一复杂就痛苦，可痛苦的人却熙熙攘攘。

Disgusting

day dreaming symptoms seem to be getting serious these days....
Staying alone in the room, i can go away from the track what I supposed to do...Not for minutes, but can up to half an hour!!!When I realise it, time passed...
I end up doing nothing...The worst part is I don't know what I was thinking..My memory is blank in the day dreaming period!!*&#%??
It not only happens for once in a day but several times and it seems to be more frequent!!
Roommate..you come back faster to call me back from dreaming~~T.T
So desperate with my low concentration ability which get worse when I stay alone~~T.T

Sorry

Haha..it seems like i has put u aside for quite some time...my blog..
I am so sorry about that...
now it's time for me to update some news...
This semester seems to be much much busier than last semester...
No more honey moon or facebooking whole day....
We are bombarded by tests, quizzes, assignments and the most nuisance researches....
Time really flies....Secretly, it comes to the end of this semester
And we are going to sit for our final few weeks after this!!!
Anyway, Life still goes on no matter what happens....
Just accept it and have to start my preparation.....(planning in my mind but how many percent it will be turned into action??)..haha....

Life of Reality

Can we describe our childhood life as innocent and a dream?
We are ageing and we will awaken from the dream one day as we step into the adolescence or adulthood stages. We are forced to face with the reality and cruelness of the life. How the real world look like and how all human beings are living. Survival skills are important for us to be successful and stay strong in this world. Nobody is going to sympathy on us and lend us a hand forever. It is different from the times before where everyone will assist you no matter what you do....
It's totally different.........

新年感言

今年的新年可说是如日当中吧？红红的太阳高挂着·，把整个气氛都搞得好闷热哦，让我更懒惰出门了...
今年的新年气氛可说是比往年的还来得冷清，是经济萧条所致？还是随着年龄的增长，那份期待与热诚也渐渐随波逐流了呢？我也不知道～
不过时间还是一逛，八天的新年就这么消失了，真的很不舍得回来学校上课（代表着又有一箩箩的功课等着我嘛），但还是无法改变事实！那就积极面对吧！！哈哈

新年

不知不觉，岁月穿梭，又大一岁了，新的一年也将至。
虎年，全新的一年，也代表着新的开始，迎接挑战的一年！
今年是第一年从外地回家过年，不知感觉如何？往年都是在家观察着外乡游子赶着归家过年！
别有一番风味!期待着归家的日子～

Tiring Week

It seems like i lived my past weekend with the only nonsense stuff~Now i discovered i am burdened with more and more stuffs which all have to be done within this week~T.T
The only thing I had done is the thing that don't need to be completed in this week!!!Why I cant be more organised when I do My things??What a failure!
It makes me sadder when Miss wywa came in and announced that we have to attend a talk and go for a trip to Putrajaya This two weeks!AND it is compulsory!!What a hell!
It makes me have a feeling of powerless!

Destiny

We have always been told that destiny lies in own own hand, we have to grab it or else we will lose it!However, how much the truth inside these words?
The recent disaster that happened in our country lately is such a big tragic!I really can't believe it!These youngsters who are energetic and kind-hearted, actively participated in the charities and curriculum activities had demised in such a shock way! Is this should be their destiny?Do they ever struggle hard to save their lives? I'm sure that they did it!But Destiny has taken their precious life away!
It further saddens me when i got to know that one of the victims is my classmate's brother!Following with the news, I was so touched and saddened for those families members!It's really cruel to take away their beloved's life in such a sudden, without any sign before!How can we accept the reality?
Destiny, the thing we can't control.The only thing we can do is that we should live our life to the fullest by doing good things and enjoy our time. We should appreciate life every single second we breathe...And treat all people well~Hope all of them rest in peace and their family can stay strong!

Non-sense birthday

Time really flies~i reached 19 and it comes without any sign~
One year older, but i have no feeling about this red day...what can I say? Hrmm..really older because my memorisation skill is getting weaker...not a good sign..
And as we grow older, we are burdened with more and more problems, we have to cope up without the assistance of others as we grow.It's the rule...Anyway, can i manage to do it?I really don't know~
Hopefully i will be more rounded person~~be a tougher and happier person!

Bad Luck

From the first day the classes started, it seems like non--stop~We are given tonnes of works load to be done including all the researches,community services,slides and assignments...Although they are not to be done within these few weeks but within this semester~it means the same for me~
I seems like doing things without rest since the first day~sometimes i don't even know what I am busying with~such a failure~it is really tiring and I feel exhausted now...It worsens when the bad luck evils keep following me these days~First was the fell down on the wet path which made me bruises...The handphone's line problems came next which nearly drove me crazy for the whole day~It seems not to settle but i change the whole plan~
Now, I had done something which wasted my money just because of my reckless action~ Although I had had lots of lessons in the past, it still continues! Who is going to tell me how can I act more organised?Think before you decide!I know well about these words but it seems to be meaningless when I face all of the problems!!!
It costs too high for me to buy all these lessons~~heartache + heart broken~~~SAd

back to school again~

New year signifying new beginning and new mind..
Also,my last year 2 months holidays end..i have to go back to my university college again..In order to continue my course...
On the way to my school, it rained cats and dogs,signifying my GREY mood as well...Really feel time flies!2 months had gone..without any sign...(sigh)
Everyone coming back these few days. The hostel is full with "human" ambience again after it is left for 2 months!
With the not so good mood,i hope that i can brush up my english and have a HAPPY + smooth year!a totally NEW YEAR!